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If the World hears us please h  

GreenJet: I lost my husband almost 3 yrs. Ago. I made bad choices not doing things right or on time.

I lost my husband almost 3 yrs. Ago. I made bad choices not doing things right or on time. It was like time Froze. Almost like I was in complete shock the 1 yr. Then as I thought it would get better I went to. my first love who we always seemed to have bad timing but never forgot. Our feelings never changed........ They still haven't but as always hes with someone not married but has a daughter with her. He' s got same feelings for me but he won't leave his family he's sorta doing ok there to. His girl is only like 8 yrs. So its bad timing again. I'm losing everything or possibly but not yet. No Life insurance that I know of. I'm in a similar boat as you but my son is. 21. Where do you live? Or a state? I am also 2 classes shy of my
B.A. in C.Just & Psy.
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If the World hears us please h   in reply to xoxangeleyes   on

My Journey to Rock Bottom: I think I've reached it.. I'm lost. I don't know how I got here.

How old are you hon. if I may ask? I'm 42. A woman. in the same boat almost....
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xoxangeleyes  

My Journey to Rock Bottom: I think I've reached it.. I'm lost. I don't know how I got here.

My Journey to Rock Bottom

I think I've reached it... Rock Bottom. I'm lost. I don't know how I got here - I thought I was taking the right path. My journey has not been easy, but long & tough with many bumps along the way. It may have been rough, slowed me down, even stopped me a couple times, but I still kept going...I did. No, this cannot be possible.. or my destination must be impossible.

Can somebody help me, with the right direction? I've lost so many things a long the way--everything except for my 6 year old son, who has been on this journey with me. We lost his father in the beginning, our guide.. it would of been different if he was here, helping us along the way. I guess he needed to take his place in Heaven, but I still don't understand. We just want him back, for him to find us again.

I thought I was doing a good job, taking the lead. I found us a safe place to stay, for awhile. If only....If only my job wasn't temporary, I wouldn't be down this road. If only I could of finished those few credits I had left in college, we'd be celebrating. If only I could turn back, and try a different turn along the way. If only.... If only time could rewind and return to us everything that was lost.

I'm scared here. I wasn't heading towards Rock Bottom-- I'm not supposed to be here. We can't be here. My son has only me to follow, he didn't have a choice. I should of been a better guide. Maybe I missed a turn somewhere, somewhere too far back for me to turn around and find. I'll just get lost again.


THIS IS MY EMOTIONS RIGHT NOW.... IM A YOUNG SINGLE MOTHER OF A 6 YEAR OLD BOY. HIS FATHER PASSED AWAY, SO ITS JUST US NOW. I WAS IN COLLEGE ON THE HONOR ROLL AND HAD 2 JOBS, BUT IT ENDED AND SO DID MY APARTMENT...I ALSO HAD A TICKET THAT I COULD NOT PAY CAUSING ME TO LOSE MY LICENSE. NOW WE RECENTLY BECAME HOMELESS WHICH CAUSED ME TO FAIL MY CLASSES AND I LOST MY FINANCIAL AID. IM IN A GARAGE RIGHT NOW AND AM DESPERATE TO HAVE A HOME AGAIN FOR MY SON.... I HAVE NOTHING BESIDES HIM, THATS ALL I NEED BUT IM SCARED THAT IF I DONT GET OUT SOON I WILL TRULY HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO LOSE..... I HAVE TRIED EVERY RESOURCE OUT THERE!!! 211 INCLUDED---NO FUNDS! :((

-- XOXANGELEYES@GMAIL.COM
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pacheco  

61YR.Old . Need assistance w/car to travel to doctor appts., school .I had. left lknee surgery and not able to walk far. I have only one income, need to pay my rent. I am also a widow.

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sadnana  

Sad Nana

Christmas is pretty bleak. My husband passed away last December from Non-Hogdkins Lymphoma, and I've been struggling ever since to take care of my two granddaughters. I work and it seems after bills and food there is nothing left over. I can't afford to buy them a Christmas presents. I haven't even bought myself shoes or clothing in over a year, any extra money which is very little goes for extra things they may need. My heart is already broken because I lost the love of my life. Not knowing what to do at christmas is another heartache I have to endure. One granddaughter is 18 and in high school, the other one is 12 and in junior high school.
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idnic  

online grief support

I found a wonderful site that has chat rooms for people who are grieving a loss of a loved one. I had been going to this site for about a month now but never got up enough guts to chat. But Yesterday was the 3 month anniversary of my husbands death. Between that and Thanksgiving I could not stop sobbing. I was at the end of my rope and feeling totally overwhelmed so I mustered up my strength and chatted. At first I couldn't see the computer screen through my tears but within 15 minutes I felt so much better and not so all alone. This site is called GROWW and the url is www.groww.org they have different rooms that focus on different types of loss such as loss of children, recently widowed, loss to suicide, etc. It really does help to be with others who really know what you are going through. I regret waiting so long to chat but am so grateful that people are willing to share.
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justus2010  

Wiped out widow...

I love my husband.If he were still alive no
way things would have gotten this
bad....ugh....i should have educated myself
while he was alive,prepared myself just in
case....I coudnt make myself believe he was
really dying...and then he did.. ugh²..
Now CPS has my kids because Im
poor.....my fault...i kinda fell apart when he
died and by the time i snapped out of it,our
financial situation had snowballed.
Disability is pending,and i cant work...my
hands are messed up pretty bad.
I have no electric or water and my
children,who are as necessary to me as
oxygen to live,cant come home til i have
utilities.
Im not sure what kind of help I need,but if
nothing else a bunch of helpful people
praying for us cant hurt.
If you are in a position to help with utilities
until we start receiving our benefits,please
help us.
Im at the end of my rope and my children
ate miserable and Im helpless to save
them.Its a really bad and shameful feeling
that tries like hell to take you down.
On top of mourning my husband,Im beat.
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justus2010  

Wiped out widow......

I love my husband.If he were still alive no
way things would have gotten this
bad....ugh....i should have educated myself
while he was alive,prepared myself just in
case....I coudnt make myself believe he was
really dying...and then he did.. ugh²..
Now CPS has my kids because Im
poor.....my fault...i kinda fell apart when he
died and by the time i snapped out of it,our
financial situation had snowballed.
Disability is pending,and i cant work...my
hands are messed up pretty bad.
I have no electric or water and my
children,who are as necessary to me as
oxygen to live,cant come home til i have
utilities.
Im not sure what kind of help I need,but if
nothing else a bunch of helpful people
praying for us cant hurt.
If you are in a position to help with utilities
until we start receiving our benefits,please
help us.
Im at the end of my rope and my children
ate miserable and Im helpless to save
them.Its a really bad and shameful feeling
that tries like hell to take you down.
On top of mourning my husband,Im beat.
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Anonymous  

I need Help...

I need a nice caring person to pay my next Electric bill, I will give you my Name and Address and the name of my Electric Co and thier Phone number and you can call them to pay my bill by credit card, you do not have to send me any money. We have had over 60 days over 90 degrees and 30 days now of 100+ degree weather here, like today it will be 109 degrees, im a 51 year old working widow woman who only makes minum wage of $7.25 an hour and i live in a moblie home, i have 2 window ac units i have to run to keep me an my dog cool, with this heat i have to run them 24 hours a day and im on a extreamly tight budget, normaly we dont get this heat till august-sept and i can pay over on my june july bills to help pay on my august - sept bills but sinec the heat came several months earlier to our area i wasnt able to add credit to my account. My elderly parents are on SS and cant help, I wont be able to pay you back for the money, i just dont have it, so it really needs to be a donation from a giving heart. Thank you, Rebecca an Mightydog my german shepard
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chosin  

My mom needs help to deal with her deceased husbands adult children.

My mothers husband passed away in December of 09 and they were together 18 years and married for the last 3 of those years. He was a Marine his whole life, he was one of the Chosin Few. They did not have children together, and when they married she signed a prenup, which was done on the day of their marriage and has been proven to be invalid. He had children from a previous marriage and they are all money hungry and malicious. They never liked my mother, even though she spent the last 2 years taking care of him as his health got really bad. They have thrown away my moms belongs that she had from before they met and are selling off items from their home even though there is a court order not too. Is there any organization out there that my mother can talk to that knows what she is going through and can help her work through all of this. He passed over a year ago and has only been able to go to the cemetary twice because they would not let her. She hasnt been able to truly grieve the loss of her husband/her best friend. Please I really really need help.
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David's widow  

Not alone in this position

I am trying to get some kind of financial help. I am a widow and have never asked anyone for any help before, but after losing my husband and several other family members within a 7 month period, I am having severe health issues, have been out of work for almost a year, have filed for disability, but employer has not sent back form, so am about to lose my home. I am behind in mortgage and am just trying to keep it. I am embarrassed to have to ask strangers for help, but have no one here to help me. Even though my husband served his country for almost half his life, earned over 13 medals, the military added insult to injury by first telling me I would get help and then refused to help. I am desparate.
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Anonymous  

Funeral Help

Have only made a couple of posts here. Am not on Computer much. My problem was ways to help pay for husbands funeral. I have other issues but this is one of the most important. I know I am blessed with a home, food, car, family who cares. It makes me sad to see people who need so many things I take for granted. If I could get my priorities straight I would try to give others a hand up (Not out). Our system is set up to help those who don't help themselves and not those of us who try to help ourselves. We are in the middle.
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Rennie Joy  

Aidpage Open Letter: Single mom, Widowed, doesn't qualify for help from the government

To the attention of:

Barack Obama, US President;
Rick Scott, Governor of Florida;
US Senators from Florida: Bill Nelson, Marco Rubio;
US Representatives from Florida: Adam H. Putnam, Alan Grayson, Alcee L. Hastings, Allen Boyd, Ander Crenshaw, Bill Posey, C. W. Bill Young, Cliff Stearns, Connie Mack, Corrine Brown, Debbie Wasserman Schultz, Ginny Brown-Waite, Gus M. Bilirakis, Ileana Ros-Lehtinen, Jeff Miller, John L. Mica, Kathy Castor, Kendrick B. Meek, Lincoln Diaz-Balart, Mario Diaz-Balart, Ron Klein, Sandy Adams, Theodore E. Deutch, Thomas J. Rooney, Vern Buchanan;
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I am a widow and  single mother of two sons. I am fortunte enough to get social security survivor's benefits for myself and my sons however I have not been able to find any other type of aid. I run out of money 2 weeks after receiving my monthly payment which means I struggle for neccessities such as food, water, electric, etc... I do not qualify for food stamps or pretty much any kind of assistance because I apparently get too much money. I have a large amount of credit card debt am I suppose to not pay the money I owe in order to support my family. It just doesn't seem fair and I can't be the only one in this situation. I do not feel it's right to not pay my debts, true I should not have gotten into the financial troubles but I have found out that I have bipolar disorder which explains to a degree why I am in this situation. Why isn't there help for middle class people who want to be able to get a head but can't. My 2 sons eat a lot and I spend a lot on groceries. My property taxes are due and I have no idea how I will pay them. I see other states with outreach programs for widows but most of the help is for widows of veterns. Sorry my husband didn't serve in the military but he was a good provider and I just want to be able to feed, cloth, and property shelter my kids.

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Post Open Letter to your Elected Representatives

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Hoppi  

Want My Life Back

Hi! I am a widow, and I am also disabled and raising my 13 year old daughter. I currently live in Washington State. I do not go out much except to the doctor and grocery store when I am able. I am no longer able to walk very well due to back problems. I am in dire need of a vehicle.
I am unable to make payments on a reliable vehicle and my credit is not good due to previous financial problems and with the death of my husband 2 years ago it is difficult to make ends meet.
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Jesseed  

About Jesseed

Hi, I need a money aid because me and my mom have problems with the house and my school I was studying and we got a terrible hit of the life when my dad died and he left us with a debt in my school and the house so we need 80,000 dlls. to get out of this problems also I am hypertense and I need medicines that are a little expensive like around 150 dlls a month, and we are alone here and no one else can help us.

I appreciate your help if you help me with 1.00 dollar or whatever you want.

Thanks.

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MissWorld  

If someone doesnt help my infant not be homeless or at least eat, Im not sure if this page works

I see so many posts of people REALLY needing help, but I dont see anyone getting any help from anyone. I see people replying and saying to go see a church or goodwill or something, things that we all already know, but no one is actually helping on this site I dont think. Church and Goodwill does not pay your rent. It doesnt give my baby his daddy back. It doesnt bring my husband back to life. I know nothing will, but you have NO IDEA how badly I want some of this stress to be gone just so I can properly grieve for the recent loss of my husband because I havent even had a chance to really cry for him because all I am ever doing is worrying and doing anything I can to try to support our baby and keep a roof over his head. We already lost the apartment, and living out of a hotel, but I only have a few more days to get 750$ together to pay for the hotel because you have to pay the full month in advance. Hotels do not have grace periods, if you dont pay, you dont have a room. And if you dont pay the monthly rate here, its extremely expensive.

And if no one on here is willing to help an infant have a place to live and have somne food and clean clothes that fit, until I start getting my paychecks, then I dont know who is getting help on here. Because if it was just me I wouldnt even be on this site. Im grown and I can handle whatever I need to handle. But one thing I cannot handle is my baby not having what he needs. No child should live like this.

 

There is some good news at least, but its potentially a devastating situation if I dont get this right. I got a really good job. It was supposed to start a couple weeks ago but it got delayed and now it just started. So thats a couple of weeks of pay that I thought I was going to have, and I would have had the money for the hotel if that would have happened. But of course it didnt, because for some reason all of a sudden anything bad that will happen IS happening. I have always had good luck and have always made things work, I dont know why this is all happening. Isnt losing my husband enough? Cant handle much more. And I dont even have an outlet for stress, I dont smoke or drink or do any drugs, never have.. so my only stress relief is taking care of my child, because that is my absolute favourite thing to do. No matter what it is, feeding him, putting him to bed, playing with him, even if he wakes up in the middle of the night crying, I happily wake up to take care of him.. i have not once been stressed out or upset with anything that has to do with taking care of him. I adore every second of it.

But anyways.. at least the job is starting. But I dont have the money to pay someone to watch him. I found someone that is really experienced and she gave me a copy of her background checks and everything, I called references, everything checked out PLUS shes cheap. But cheap isnt cheap enough when you dont have money. So if I cant pay her to watch him, I cant go to work, then I lose the job. I also need gas money to GET TO the job. So basically I need money for a sitter, gas money, I really dont care if I even eat right now so Im not too worried about that, I can eat bread or oatmeal or something, but the baby needs food because WIC will not just approve me for some reason, they keep asking for proof of income and I dont have proof of income and theyve been asking me for this even before I got the job and I keep telling them Im applying BECAUSE I dont have income, which means no proof. People, please stop messing with me. Let SOMETHING go right for once! My car keeps cutting out while Im driving so Im just praying every day that it will keep working and not break. ESPECIALLY if the baby is with me, it is so so so cold here, if we broke down somewhere at night in this cold, I have no idea what I would do. So no matter how broke we are right now, i make sure I have my cell phone paid because that is a safety issue for the baby. So at least I have a phone. Anyways, sitter, gas, food for baby, and the hotel rent coming up in a few days.

I dont care what we have to do to make you comfortable with helping,I am willing to do it. If you want to write up a contract saying I need to pay X amount back plus X amount interest by X amount of time, I would absolutely sign that. I would give copy of my ID and SS card, anything you need to know how to take me to court if I dont pay you back. Because I know that Im going to be able to pay for everything and have money left over as soon as I get just a couple checks, so paying money back is NO PROBLEM. AND I have a 6month contract on this job, so I wont be losing the job before I am able to pay you back in full.

I have no idea what situation someone has to be in to get help, if this isnt a desperate enough situation to reach someones heart out there that wants to be this babys angel. You have NO IDEA the difference you would make in this torn familys life. If someone actually did help, I know Im going to finally cry immediately because so much of this stress would be lifted off of my shoulders, I would know my baby was going to be ok, I would be able to stop worrying for one second and finally cry for my husbands loss of his life, and also cry because someone out there actually still has a heart. I know people on here give to charities.. I dont see why they wouldnt want to actually see the results of their help, to see it actually affect a childs life and actually see a family consider you as their life saving angel. Im not asking for anyone to feel bad for me losing my husband or not having what I need, but please PLEASE please dont overlook my child and just assume someone else will help or that we will figure it out because its not going to happen and this site is my last hope to just make it until I get my first paycheck. Thank you for reading all of this. I dont know what else to say.. except for please.

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Susandennison  

About Susandennison

Single mother of three. Husband passed away in October 2009. I am jobless, carless and in a lot of debt. My home is facing foreclosure. Any help would be greatly appreciated. Once I was so prideful, but now I am learning to accept help from others. Once you hit rock bottom you accept more. Pray for me and god bless anyone who is willing to help.

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joyous  

About joyous

Florida Merry Widow

needs to  supplement

low social security.

 

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